For the first time in many many years I can say that I have a sense of peace and happiness.
All the past hurts, anger and sadness does not fill my mind at quiet times anymore. I don’t get the anxious thoughts of what will I do next….
I am good with where I am at right now. Busy with work, but still give myself enough time to go fly fishing. I live alone with Teddy and we are both good with that. I have a great backyard garden that has already produced many sugar peas, butter lettuce and strawberries. Hopefully tomatoes this week. I have a wonderful front flower bed that my grandson loves to help me with when he visits.
Now I am aware this beautiful weather brightens my spirits, but I think it is more than this. I feel okay with being alone. I love all my family, second families and great friends I have made through the two fly fishing clubs.
I am okay if I never find anyone to share my life with. It would be nice to, but if it is meant to happen then I will trust it will. In the meantime I am happy! I am so blessed. I am thankful everyday for the place I am in right now.
The painful past is just that PAST- I am living for today and tomorrow.